An Uninspired + Unexpected Sick Day

Hey guys, something really icky happened to me yesterday – I started vomiting around 2:00 in the morning, and it was awful …. I tried getting up for work – I showered, etc, but after more heaving, I called my bosses and told them I was too sick to do work (I HATE doing that because I’m usually a very dependable person). They were both super nice about it, however!

I fell back asleep and slept until about 11:30 when I woke up and had to dry heave once more. Luke also got me a Sprite, which tasted WONDERFUL!

While I slept, Caprica kept me company – here she is in her “thinking position”!

Breakfast, lunch and dinner were very uninspired – I ate them all very slowly, trying to test my stomach.

Breakfast – a Pink Lady apple and an orange.

Lunch (at 3:00 in the afternoon) – a chicken salad from United.

Dinner – at 8:30 pm. – a strawberry fields salad from United.

Annnnd then I proceeded to sleep the entire day away – no joke. Sickness SUCKS. Here’s hoping for a better tomorrow!

~ Mandy

Cardio Bunny

Howdy my friends! How are y’all doing? I’ve been busy with work, as is my new usual, but I had today off, which was lovely. Here we go with my eats and workoutย  ~

Breakfast – a pink lady apple with Tajin.

Lunch – Torchy’s Tacos! (Not healthy at all but damn good, and a treat on my day off!) We shared a Hillbilly Queso and each enjoyed two Trailer Park Tacos, Trashy!

Workout – I took an unexpected nap, which was probably due to starting to take my Hydroxzyine in the evening, a regimen which I started just yesterday. A bit grumpy, I drove to Pak to see Luke in my workout clothes, and he encouraged me to just get my ass to the gym … so I did! I did 1 hour on the elliptical and burned about 500 kcal or so (if you listen to the machine … I’m not sure I buy that I lose that many calories, but hey, the number makes me feel good).

I’m down about 5 lbs from my recent high weight, and I’m so thrilled!

Y’all. It’s AMAZING to do cardio without struggling with anorexia and bulimia …I felt just fantastic and embraced being a Cardio Bunny! I plan to do cardio on days when Luke and I can’t work out together – when we can, I’ll do weights with him. C, and cardio will help lean me out!

Dinner – a cucumber with Spike and some light dressing as an appetizer …. I roasted some broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, and Brussels sprouts and drizzled them with light dressing. ed

Alrighty, I’m off to get some rest as I open the store tomorrow! Here’s looking forward to some spring weather this week!

~ Mandy

Killer Workouts + Changing Courses

Hey guys! How are you today? I was tired for sure over Monday and Tuesday – Daylight Savings is a bitch, and I take back any chipper comments I made earlier about enjoying it.

Guess who’s been KILLING getting loyalty accounts and ESPECIALLY credit cards at work? THIS GIRL! Starting Monday to Thursday night (tonight) I’ve gotten 7 ENCC’s (Express Next Credit Cards). My secret is making the ENCC promotion sound like a short-time thing, a promotion that will go away soon (so people want to take advantage of it) and to mention the promotion to them as they shop, not when they get to the cash wrap.

I woke up to hit the gym on Monday, and OOH MY GOSH, I was too sore … I could barely walk. Ugh. That’s okay – I was on my feet all day today anyway with work, and since it was a rainy day today, it felt like a nice rest day.

I was so happy with myself before work on Monday too – I called and made three doctor’s appointments, which I tend to dread (I’m not a fan of the doctor, which is funny because my husband wants to be a PA). Since I’m a manager at Express, and our store manager creates the schedules for us four managers about a month in advance, I needed to get my dates in for my appointments – luckily my eye appointment falls on a day next week when I’m off (I’m almost out of contacts, plus I think my vision has changed a smidge).

On Tuesday, I simply slept in … it was raining, and while I set my alarm for a workout, I slept through it! :/ UGH.

On Wednesday, however, hubs and I did BACK … and then Thursday night after work, Luke and his friend Marc worked out arms and a bit of chest with me. ๐Ÿ™‚


A banana with PB and coffee with cinnamon and almond milk.

One good ol’ plain banana!

… another banana with PB …

… and an apple with Tajin.


A honeycrisp apple with Tajin …

… and some roasted chicken with chicken dipping sauce and some red bell pepper and avocado with light Catalina.

A Boar’s Head turkey sandwich with broccoli, a few tomatoes, and some dressing.

… and a fried egg salad (it doesn’t look pretty but it was yummy!).


Cucumber with dressing and Kombucha!


Baked chicken breast with chicken dipping sauce (not too much, after all it’s about 150 kcal per 2 tbsp, which is a LOT), red bell pepper, broccoli, tomatoes, light dressing, and salsa.

A Frullati chicken pecan salad … let’s just say that I wasn’t a fan of this salad. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Too much mayo in the chicken and the ranch dressing – YUCK … so I ate the greens. Icky.

And, of course, my favorite dinner (especially after a workout) = FILET with BLEU CHEESE

Interestingly, a development has occurred with my husband and his current degree plan in biology to become a Physician’s Assistant … he’s NOT happy or inspired with it, and he’s been struggling with a lot of stress and depression. His best friend (Marc, as previously mentioned) is a pre-med student who decided to switch to nursing in the fall, and Luke’s heavily considering switching his major to nursing – and to be honest, I think it’s a STELLAR idea. Why? Well …

…. many reasons. Becoming a P.A. is a daunting path and it’s SUPER competitive, especially for a white male like Luke; Luke was feeling the pressure of doing a ton of community service and keeping his grades tip top, all while working at Pak, and he’d been feeling pretty low and lost for a while.

Nursing school, however, is a bachelor’s degree … and Luke’s already half way done with the requirements due to basics and the biology degree. It has no silly requirements like community service, the program inundates the student into the nursing world through clinicals (you can even work at the hospital as a nursing student,) and it makes good money from the bachelor’s standpoint . If Luke wants to become a nurse anesthetist or something to the like, he can go back to school for a master’s or a doctorate once we’re more financially stable.ย  But no rush!

(And, as a bonus, I can finish my degree – I’m only 25 hours out from my General Studies with an Emphasis on English, and I plan on finishing once Luke has his bachelors!)

So that’s what’s been going on in the Martaus Household recently! Hope ya’ll have a nice day!

~ Mandy


A Reflection on My Epic Journey

Hey everyone and Happy Sunday (and Happy Spring Break)! Anyone out there besides me who’s enjoying the time change? No? Ha!

Obviously I had the weekend off because I’m posting frequently … my goal, however, is to post on the regular despite my job. I’m on the up and up from struggling with two eating disorders for nearly 20 years, a journey where I’ve had to retrain myself to eat, had to gain a little weight, etc in order to learn balance, and NOW the time is ripe for me to lose some chub and get muscular again. I’d like to document my journey on here, as it has been an EPIC journey so far, and I’m still hiking the winding path, only this part of the path is full of light, stability, and positivity. ๐Ÿ™‚

Alrighty, here’s how my day went!

I merrily slept through breakfast this morning, but I made up for it over the course of the day.

Lunch – two eggs with salsa, broccoli, tomatoes, and yellow bell pepper with hummus and a bit of ranch. Coffee with almond milk (I’m switching from soy to almond b/c calories).

Afternoon Meal – an orange with Tajin and a Boar’s Head turkey wrap with dressing.

Persephone wanted some attention after I ate my meal, so I picked her up and cuddled …

And when Luke came home from seeing a friend, Caprica immediately climbed onto his chest and started rubbing his nose with her own, as she always does … she’s definitely Luke’s cat!

… and not to be left out, Calliope came rubbing on feet, so I picked her up – she wasn’t too thrilled, as you can tell, and I’m making a goofy face LMAO.

Luke and I hit the gym for an hour and did biceps and triceps.

At the gym, I complained about my ancient headset – I can’t wear earbuds very well with my Tragus piercing – and Luke surprised me by ordering this cordless rose gold headset …. I feel so spoiled!


Calliope decided to perch on the scratching post, and I caught her mid-jump and wide-eyed.


Dinner #1 – veg (red onion, carrots, broccoli, tomatoes, and orange bell pepper ) with 2 tbsp of hummus and about 2 tbsp of dressing.

Dinner #2 – a filet with bleu cheese, spinach, tomatoes, and dressing. My favorite bite of the day was the steak.

Here’s to a happier, healthier tomorrow, my friends!

~ Mandy

What I Ate Today + A Fab Workout+ Fashionable Musings + A Special Purchase

Hey friends! Long time no post – I’ve been adjusting to working full time, but I’m enjoying it too! I hope to start posting more about diet and exercise (with a little Spring fashion thrown in ๐Ÿ™‚ ) as I’m attempting to lose about 25 lbs in a healthy and steady manner along with building muscle.

My Method to Losing Weight and Getting into Better Shape ~

  • cut out Splenda and just try a teaspoon of sugar in my coffee in the morning
  • cut out Coke Zero …. drink water instead
  • watch portion sizes – I don’t want to be a Nazi about portion sizes completely, but I want to measure out hummus, dressings, etc. as I’m wont to overdo my fats
  • lift weights with or without Luke … I PREFER working out with him, but since our schedules are so crazy, I’m gonna have to bite the bullet and hit the gym without him some days
  • EAT a little LESS in general … I refuse to turn to the starvation of anorexia again as I love food too much now, but I need to rein in my portion (as mentioned above) and make smart choices regarding carbohydrates and unhealthy fats
  • Drink alcohol in moderation, less often (and stick to hard stuff, not beer or wine)

This was my day on 3/9/19 ๐Ÿ™‚ ~

Lunch – three hard boiled eggs with S+P and Sriracha and a banana with about a tbsp of PB.

Pre-Workout Snack – two hard boiled eggs, 1.5 tbsp of plain hummus, broccoli, tomatoes, S+P

Workout –ย  Leg day

You guys. I weighed myself at the gym … let’s just say that I’m less than thrilled with my body right now! I’d like to lose 25-30 lbs … that’s my goal. I want to look sexy again, not flabby. And it’s TOTALLY POSSIBLE to do without being eating disordered!

Early Dinner/Post Workout – Root Beer Kombucha, and 100 calories of okra + hummus + dressing = about 200 kcal.

Late Night Snack – beef tenderloin with Maytag bleu cheese

The tenderloin was my favorite bite of the day – Luke cooked it perfectly!

A few Fashionable Musings with Express Outlet’s new goodies … I love this olive, blue, and red romper …

… this gorgeous maxi dress in red and pink …

… this cute camo romper (I’m going to buy this one eventually) …

… and this cute kimono … also something that I’m sure I’ll buy eventually …

I thought about purchasing a few items from Express when I receive my paycheck next week, but after a talk with Luke, he made a good point – would I want three items which would turn essentially into “just more clothes,” or would I like one piece that would actually mean something to me? Well, duh. I want something that’s meaningful! And I happened to know just the dress – I’ve been stalking the Pleated Colorblock Dress from Anthropologie EVER SINCE IT CAME OUT, and as luck would have it, the previously out-of-my-price-range dress was on sale with an additional 30% off … I was thrilled to see this! I ordered it and cannot wait for it to come … I’ll certainly do a review!

That’s all, my friends! Have a good night!

~ Mandy

WIAW (Two Days Late) + OOTD + Fashion Reviews

Hey friends! How are you today? I have the day off, which is super nice – it’s taking me a ton of energy adjusting to having a full time job instead of just being part time, but I do enjoy my work at Express! My colleagues are so awesome, and they make my job a joy. Admittedly, I sometimes still doubt my ability to do my job, but this comes and goes … it usually waxes when I’m off and wanes when I’m actually at work.

I did a What I Ate Wednesday but forgot to post it – so here it is, two days late ~

Breakfast salad with eggs and salsa …

Light vanilla yogurt with a small orange …

Sauteed bacon and broccoli with avocado green goddess ….

… and chicken salad for dinner at work!


I’m working on getting a full length mirror to help with my OOTDs – today I wore SPACE BUNS with Express tee, Express Outlet leggings, Forever 21 cardigan, and Free People heels (reviewed below). This is most certainly a “minimal makeup, crazy hair” day off work! ๐Ÿ™‚

A few fashion reviews ….

The Juniper Jumpsuit in a size 6 … KEEPER! I find it runs TTS. This jumpsuit is proving very popular on FP as it is nearly sold out (I was lucky to snag one). My one complaint is that the rung/holes on the straps aren’t nearly short enough – I tightened them bypassing all of the three holes and not using the rung – and thankfully the straps are snug enough not to need a hole to hold them in place.

For fun, I styled the jumpsuit with an Express sweater, and I love the look!

And the Walk On By Heel in red, size 9, is … a KEEPER! Guys, these shoes are super comfortable for being 3″ heels. I have some 2″ heels that aren’t as comfortable as these.

… and I have a few more things on the way in the form of two leotards that I snagged for $19.99 each …. I want to incentivize myself to work out more often, so I thought buying a few cute leotards would be a good idea! We shall see, ha!

(In all seriousness, I need to keep hitting the weights with my hubs! I’ve got about 10-15 vanity pounds to lose, or rather about 2 inches to lose in my waist.)

AAAAAAND you guys! My insurance is FINALLY paying for my Vraylar and my Trintellix (for my bipolar I and depression) after having to take samples from the doctor’s office for about a year … MAJOR WIN!

Alrighty, that’s my spiel! Have a great day, my friends! ๐Ÿ™‚

~ M