Lately: Food + Working + Fashion

Hey there, my friends! I’m trying a new format on the blog today … hope you enjoy because I’ll probably be employing it often. ๐Ÿ™‚

Tasty Meals

Egg ‘n’ toast, egg ‘n’ toast!

On Friday, I texted Luke about how hungry I was at work! He responded “Let’s meet at Torchy’s Tacos at 2 when you’re off!” … I started drooling immediately. We shared the Hillbilly Queso, and we both ordered two Trailer Park Tacos (TRASHY, OF COURSE!). The green chiles were especially delicious on them, and oh that perfectly fried chicken and dressing!

On Saturday night, I was exhausted from working at Express, and we were direly low on food, so I just gave in and asked Luke if he’d like pizza. I ordered two pizzas from Papa John’s – a custom with pepperoni, beef, mushroom, and black olive, and I wanted to try the BBQ meats one (although I added a few more veggies). And yes, I had more than one piece – the pic below was just my starter. ๐Ÿ™‚ We *rarely* have pizza, y’all, band this was simply a last-ditch effort to have something easy for dinner.

(While waiting for the pizza, my kitty friend Calliope was wanting attention!)

Honeycrisp + PB

And, of course, one cannot live without a bite of sweet, gooey goodness. ๐Ÿ™‚

Working Gal

One downside to working retail? Your feet hurt! I stupidly wore some heels that rubbed my toes and heels, thus creating dreaded blisters. It was AWFUL, y’all. I wore my Free People Laguna mules for a few days after the blister incident, and they allowed my poor heels to breathe … but soon I discovered that my damn toes were getting rubbed a bit too hard by the mules.

Desperate, I dug into my old shoe pile, armed with a pair of black socks. I figured that a sandal would be the best option for my blistered feet. SURPRISE! I discovered that, indeed, my practically unworn Kork-Ease platforms and my neglected white Anthropologie Sandro Rosi’s were just the ticket for my blisters. (And bonus, they make me 6’2″!)

Outfits and Fashion

Just a few What I Wore’s for ya …

And let’s face it, Express and Express Factory Outlet are having some *amazing* sales right now in preparation for Black Friday *ugh*- I snagged these two items for 40% off ~

The Side Stripe Fitted Ribbed Sheath Dress

Ornate Stone Earrings

More of my picks from Express include ~

Faux Fur Leopard Coat

The Cable Knit Split Back Pullover Sweater (SUPER CUTE with a bralette, I bought it in gray)

Faux Leather Leggings

The Ruffle Elastic Waist Wrap Dress (this runs a touch small)

And a personal favorite jean legging that I own and love is the High Waisted Perfect Jean Legging (and don’t worry, tall ladies, these jeans are long enough for me … if you’re 6’0″ and taller, you may need a size tall, but if you’re 5’10” to 5’11” like me, the regulars are a good length … one reason that I really love Express pants is that the regulars are long enough!)

And don’t forget about Eddie Bauer for sportswear and warm clothing – currently 40% off everything!

My picks from Eddie Bauer ~

The Women’s Microtherm 2.0 Stormdown Jacket

The Women’s Sandstone 2.0 Soft Shell Jacket (my fav color is Cinder)

The Women’s Movement Leggings

The Women’s Camp Fleece Sherpa Cardigan (perfect for lounging in style and comfort!)

And, of course, my personal favorite (I’m hinting for a Christmas or B-day gift, ha!) is the Women’s Trail Tight Leggings in Printed.

Now I don’t spend all of my earnings on clothing, ha! We have bills, just like the rest of the world. I’m just advertising what I think is fashionable and comfortable sold by the stores where I work. ๐Ÿ™‚

TTYL,

~ Mandy

 

The Mysterious 150

Let’s discuss The Mysterious 150 … pounds, that is. That’s right. I currently weigh 150 lbs, ya see. HOWEVER. I’m not pissed off about it, as you might not have guessed! I look *so* different now, despite weighing nearly the same amount about 3 years ago!

So why do I look GREAT at 150 lbs instead of chubby? I honestly am prettyย  dumbfounded (Luke is too, which is rare for Mr. P.A. Student/Weightlifting Fanatic). Perhaps it’s because I eat a ton of protein, perhaps it’s because the ED has faded (why yes, I had bulimia with anorexic tendencies when all of the old pictures below were taken … heavy people can have eating disorders, bitches! It’s actually VERY common, so don’t judge!), perhaps it’s because I’ve gained muscle and little fat in my recovery, perhaps it’s some supplements that I take, perhaps it’s because I’m not drinking so many empty calories … perhaps, perhaps, perhaps this and that. I simply don’t know the answer.

Here are some comparison pics to prove my case. This is me at about 155 lbs in January of 2015 (I was working at James Avery at the time) …

… at 158 lbs that summer …

… at 163 lbs … … and back to 158 lbs.

And HERE’S MY GLORIOUS ASS NOW!

I look *sooo good* … yes, I need to tone up, but dayum!

Again, I honestly don’t know how this happened – I’ve only started lifting again very recently, so it’s not weightlifting that’s done it (perhaps?). I did lift heavily until this April and May-ish before I got stuck in the throes of the eating disorders again and had to go to Bellevue for treatment. Admittedly, I gained only 5 lbs in Bellevue (I came in weighing 135 and left at 140 on the dot).

Aaaaand after Bellevue, I simply stopped weightlifting. To be frank, I was floundering in my own miserable sea of boredom and uselessness and dumbass schemes until I decided to get a job in late October.

Now, of course, I have two jobs and am on my feet a goodly portion of the day. My outlook on life has changed from dreary to cheery. Surely feeling useful and chipper after a long bought of depression and despair (thank you, Bipolar I) has an impact on how our bodies change? I think so!

And I’m weightlifting now, and I’d like to get to 160 lbs to see what 10 pounds of muscle on my body looks like!

And that, my friends, is the Mysterious Case of the 150.

~ Mandy

Working Girl + Hitting a Goal Weight + This and That

Hey y’all! I have news – since I’m back to working now, I don’t always have the energy to post every day. However, I’mย  going to try consolidating a few days into one post, as I’m doing today!

So how do I like working? I *really* enjoy it – I love my people at Eddie Bauer, and I love helping people with clothing and fashion at Express (I’m getting to know my peeps there too!). Yes, Black Friday and that Saturday will be BUSY for me – I work 7 a.m. until 10 p.m. on Black Friday, and the on Saturday I work 10 a.m. – 9:30 p.m.

Breakfasts

I had a bowl of Greek yogurt with pumpkin swirled in, a banana, honey, PB, and cinnamon one day …. ๐Ÿ™‚

… and then I had oatmeal – my usual mix of banana, pumpkin, and PB. Sooo good and very filling. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Yes, I wasย  erring on the sweet side of breakfast as we were out of eggs (my absolute fav breakfast item).

On Monday, we were low on breakfast food, so I ate cinnamon sugar toast.

And today I ate three eggs with two slices of toast (with butter and jelly).

Lunches

On Saturday, I enjoyed half of a chicken breast on a bed of spinach, cucumber, and with some bleu cheese and a drizzle of ranch and honey mustard. This lunch was ACE!

On Sunday, lunch was pretty straightforward – I had a Boar’s Head turkey sandwich with ranch and some celery with ranch and salsa (why yes, I like ranch, can’t you tell).

On Monday, I had some deer sausage with pepper jack cheese and mustard … easy peasy, I wasn’t all that hungry.

And then today, I had a lovely Greek salad (the kind that comes in the bag) with half of a BBQ chicken breast. A delicious and filling lunch for sure!

Work Outs

We did workouts on Saturday, Sunday, and Monday at Verdure …

… but today, we went to the Town Club! Luke has a membership with the Town Club, and I do believe I’m getting one as well. Verdure is nice, but the equipment is lacking in the weights department, and to be honest, it feels less “serious” when it comes to lifting there (Luke’s words).

Here are some pics of me doing arms and back today ๐Ÿ™‚ ~

And y’all. Guess what. I weighed myself at the Town Club for the first time in months, and I weigh 150 lbs! WHAT?! Luke said he would have guessed 135, and then he asked his friend Marc, who also guessed around there. I do believe that getting up and moving around at work is really helping me, plus going to the gym of course!

I mean, I’m 5’10,” I wear a size 4 pant at Express, and I find Express to run small in some styles (I’m either an XS or a S) – so clearly I’m not fat or anything. But most importantly, I’m feeling GREAT and am THRIVING! ๐Ÿ™‚

Ultimately, I’d like to be a very muscular 165-170 lbs! Huzzah! GOALS, Y’ALL!

Post-Work Out

I had a pumpkin banana protein shake before I went to Eddie Bauer on Saturday …

… and several more protein shakes were consumed but not documented over the next few days.

Today, however, I had aย  cucumber and some ranch. Yummy!I was getting munchy around 5:30 today, so I had some venison sausage with Baby Swiss cheese, ranch and honey mustard for dipping.ย Dinners

Saturday night’s dinner was a Boar’s Head sandwich with ranch. Our local Edes Meats makes these sandwiches and sells them exclusively at Pak a Sak, where hubs works. They are *good*! Edes also makes excellent salads. ๐Ÿ™‚

And on Sunday, during the snowstorm, Luke fixed us a New York strip with bleu cheese and spinach … sooo good!

On Monday, I had a salad made with spinach, broccoli, turkey, baby Swiss cheese, and ranch dressing. Easy peasy …

… and then on Tuesday, I had avocado and egg toast. ๐Ÿ™‚ I also enjoyed something new to me – a hybrid of an apple and a pear. It was gorgeous to look at, and it was yummy to eat!

Tonight I had another chicken salad with avocado, broccoli, BBQ chicken, and ranch and BBQ. So tasty!

Highlights Over the Past Few Days ~

1) Enjoying a beer after work …. you haven’t lived if you have never tried a beer after being on your feet for 8 hours.

2)ย Persephone had a Chinese Stand Off with Luke’s backpack one evening. It was literally the dumbest thing we’d both ever seen. Luke captured a picture of it … we just died laughing at the poor silly kitty!3) Caprica cuddles. Everyone should have an animal like Caprica in their lives. 4) My new necklace from Express! It looks like something you’d see on Game of Thrones. I’m in love!

5) I also bought a ton of clothes for 90% off (a perk if you start working there), so I’ll have some fashions to show off very soon! This is one lounge dress that I bought, and I adore the bell sleeves! Super fun.

Alrighty, that’s what I’ve got my friends! Peace, I’m out!

~ Mandy

Cinnamon Coffee + A Successful Interview

Howdy! Well, my arms are *sore* from working out yesterday! Sadly, I didn’t have time to workout today, but I promised Luke that I’d go with him tomorrow. ๐Ÿ™‚

I started my day off with a newfound favorite – cinnamon coffee! Let me tell you about it! I learned that this is often what bed and breakfasts do to spruce up their coffee game, so I gave it a try a few days ago … I’m in love! All you do is sprinkle some cinnamon into your coffee grounds and then brew away!

Around 11:30, I was hungry for breakfast, so I scrambled a few eggs (of course I shared with Miss Serina) and topped them with salsa.

Luke took his chemistry lab final today, and he wanted to go to Chick-Fil-A for lunch! I didn’t take a picture, but I had a 12 piece nugget and large fries with Chick-Fil-A sauce (which I have not tried until today, soo yummy!). It was nice to go out to lunch with my hubs – it was nothing fancy, but we haven’t been out to eat in a while. Nope, I didn’t snap a picture – I was too busy living in the moment, as they tried to teach us to do in Residential.

After my late lunch, I took Serina on a long walk around the apartment complex where she met a few new humans and dogs. ๐Ÿ™‚

Soon it was time for my interview with Express, so I cleaned up my look a bit (no Birkenstocks, a nice Express jacket, etc) and headed out to rock it!

In an awesome stroke of luck, I was almost immediately hired on with Express – hallelujah!

I met Luke at Pak a Sak after my interview, and I picked up a Boar’s Head turkey sandwich for dinner. I added some cucumber, carrot, and broccoli to my plate and had some honey mustard and ranch for dipping.

And what have the kitties been up to, you might ask? Don’t worry – we haven’t totally abandoned them! In fact, they still lead pretty cozy, comfy lives with tons of sleeping, lounging, more sleeping … you get the idea. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Serina enjoyed eating dinner with me, and then we played some tug-o-war … treats followed!

We stayed up a little too late waiting for Luke to come home (and took a long night walk), but hey, I adore seeing my man. ๐Ÿ™‚

‘Til tomorrow,

~ Mandy

A Day of Positivity

Alright, y’all, so I had a bad day yesterday. Guess what? Luke apologized, I’ve stopped pouting, I am OVER being sorry for myself … sometimes I just have to be real and post about my ED triggers (which are admittedly very upsetting for me, but again, I’m just trying to keep it real on here).

I woke up a bit low, yes, and I didn’t eat breakfast, but I soon got over my little mood swing and ate a bite of lunch after Luke left for school around 1. I also took Miss Serina on several walks, and that really helped my mood too!

I DID do something VERY POSITIVE today ~ I went with Luke to the gym and slayed an arm workout – I felt so much better after doing that! I haven’t been to the gym in a few months, and it’s HIGH TIME that I start my exercise routine again.

I’ll be back logging my eats tomorrow for sure. ๐Ÿ˜‰

~ Mandy

 

The Day that Shouldn’t Have Been

Hey guys. Well, I’m trying to keep my chin up and keep on fighting the good fight against my ED, but days like today make it *very difficult* to keep on going.

Today was a dreary day that didn’t get about 48 degrees, and it was just not a good day. Luke woke up late for school and was in a mood, and he took off to hang out with a friend for a while. I admittedly was pretty cheerful until a triggering incident happened at about 5:45 in the afternoon (I’ll tell you about it).

Here’s how the day went “food-wise” ~

I enjoyed one of my guilty pleasures for breakfast -it looks like eggs on toast, right? Well, it IS … but it has a secret lurking beneath the egg that you cans barely see! You might spy a smidge of purple … yes, I eat jelly on my toast with my eggs. It’s SO good – don’t knock it until you try it! I was pretty happy after this meal.

After breakfast, I took a shower … while the puppy pooped all over the floor and promptly ate the majority of it ๐Ÿ˜ฆ . ICKY! I cleaned up, asked Luke to go to Petsmart for puppy shampoo, and Serina fell asleep after her escapade.

(She’s so cute that it’s hard to be mad with her.)

Lunch was very straightforward – a mix of veggies (carrot, broccoli, cauliflower, green pepper, and cucumber) seasoned with S+P and ranch for dipping. Nothing wrong here.

Luke went out with a friend to Blue Sky, a local burger joint, for some cheese fries, and he brought me back some, which was very sweet of him.

Unfortunately, this is where things turn badly – I ate about half of the fries and then I put the rest in the fridge for later. About two hours later,ย  I wanted the rest of my fries, but in Luke’s eyes, I was eating too soon and should be full from my earlier snack.

Basically I felt highly criticized for wanting to eat … this sent me into a SPIRAL of depression, sadness, triggered my body image issues, and I have now resolved to not eat much anymore. It’s too much to deal with, food is simply too complicated for an idiot like me. I also forced myself to measure my waist and felt highly displeased with the number I saw, so I need to get that down for sure. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

At least Luke also brought pup home a Kong toy, which we put a treat in … she went to town, and it was super cute.

Well that’s all I have … this post really sucks, I realize. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Oh well. Here’s to a better day tomorrow …

~ Mandy

 

I’m a “GOTG”

Howdy guys! What’s going on today? I don’t have to work today, so huzzah!

Breakfast this morning was a big one! Three eggs, two pieces of honey wheat toast, a small avocado, and cucumber. I needed a filling breakfast and ate around 8:20 – I worked until 2, and I don’t like fast food at the mall, so I definitely needed a large breakfast!

At work today, one thing *really* stood out to me – I was learning about the different jackets and layering pieces we have at Eddie Bauer, and my manager picked out a specific coat and showed me the acronym “GOTG” on the label – it stands for Girl on the Go! I love that! ๐Ÿ™‚

Upon returning home around 2:30, I was pleasantly surprised that my hubby had made me a steak salad and a much-needed coffee!

Lunch was SO yummy … I’m lucky to have a hubby who thinks of me! ๐Ÿ™‚

Dinner was a throw-together meal on my part – 2 eggs topped with salsa, spinach, cucumber, and carrot topped with ranch, and a piece of toast with butter.

That’s all I got for today!

~ Mandy