Hey guys. Welp, I’m struggling – I’m wrestling my ED behaviors and ANXIETY as of late, and I’m not quite sure what caused all of these old issues to flare up again …. my life feels like Spring Has Sprung and thus it’s time to become a general catastrophe in the mood department.
My life is literally ebbing and flowing – I flow at work, and then I ebb everywhere else. Perhaps I’m a bit manic? If so, it’s an agitated mania (not the “fun” kind), and it’s miserable. I plan on calling my psychiatrist’s office tomorrow and will attempt to explain what’s happening … but it’s so difficult to put what’s going on into words. My hydroxyzine seems to not be working very well anymore either, so my nervous energy is HIGH HIGH HIGH.
Food-wise, I’ve been eating less. Much less. And when I do eat, I have the extreme urge to vomit … it’s easier to just not eat right now. Today, for instance, all I’ve wanted has been coffee with Silk coconut milk. I’ve stopped bringing elaborate meals to work and have been sticking to one solitary piece of fruit to keep me sustained for my eight hour shifts.
Ugh, y’all. Ugh. It’s not something I’m very proud of.
Looking at Free People and Anthro’s pretties is a soothing pastime … here are a few choices from FP ~
I own two pairs of the Thunderbird Oxford, and I’m tempted to grab the snake pattern because they are COMFORTABLE shoes AND because they’re well made! (The Emery Flatform is tempting too because, well, it’s unique, but I’ve had trouble with the quality of Jeffery Campbell shoes … ugh! decisions decisions!)
I have a $135 dollar return into Free People, so one or two of these goodies *may* find a way home with me!
Here’s hoping that I keep my shit together, you guys Here’s hoping. I’ll keep you updated.