A Day of Positivity

Alright, y’all, so I had a bad day yesterday. Guess what? Luke apologized, I’ve stopped pouting, I am OVER being sorry for myself … sometimes I just have to be real and post about my ED triggers (which are admittedly very upsetting for me, but again, I’m just trying to keep it real on here).

I woke up a bit low, yes, and I didn’t eat breakfast, but I soon got over my little mood swing and ate a bite of lunch after Luke left for school around 1. I also took Miss Serina on several walks, and that really helped my mood too!

I DID do something VERY POSITIVE today ~ I went with Luke to the gym and slayed an arm workout – I felt so much better after doing that! I haven’t been to the gym in a few months, and it’s HIGH TIME that I start my exercise routine again.

I’ll be back logging my eats tomorrow for sure. ๐Ÿ˜‰

~ Mandy

 

The Day that Shouldn’t Have Been

Hey guys. Well, I’m trying to keep my chin up and keep on fighting the good fight against my ED, but days like today make it *very difficult* to keep on going.

Today was a dreary day that didn’t get about 48 degrees, and it was just not a good day. Luke woke up late for school and was in a mood, and he took off to hang out with a friend for a while. I admittedly was pretty cheerful until a triggering incident happened at about 5:45 in the afternoon (I’ll tell you about it).

Here’s how the day went “food-wise” ~

I enjoyed one of my guilty pleasures for breakfast -it looks like eggs on toast, right? Well, it IS … but it has a secret lurking beneath the egg that you cans barely see! You might spy a smidge of purple … yes, I eat jelly on my toast with my eggs. It’s SO good – don’t knock it until you try it! I was pretty happy after this meal.

After breakfast, I took a shower … while the puppy pooped all over the floor and promptly ate the majority of it ๐Ÿ˜ฆ . ICKY! I cleaned up, asked Luke to go to Petsmart for puppy shampoo, and Serina fell asleep after her escapade.

(She’s so cute that it’s hard to be mad with her.)

Lunch was very straightforward – a mix of veggies (carrot, broccoli, cauliflower, green pepper, and cucumber) seasoned with S+P and ranch for dipping. Nothing wrong here.

Luke went out with a friend to Blue Sky, a local burger joint, for some cheese fries, and he brought me back some, which was very sweet of him.

Unfortunately, this is where things turn badly – I ate about half of the fries and then I put the rest in the fridge for later. About two hours later,ย  I wanted the rest of my fries, but in Luke’s eyes, I was eating too soon and should be full from my earlier snack.

Basically I felt highly criticized for wanting to eat … this sent me into a SPIRAL of depression, sadness, triggered my body image issues, and I have now resolved to not eat much anymore. It’s too much to deal with, food is simply too complicated for an idiot like me. I also forced myself to measure my waist and felt highly displeased with the number I saw, so I need to get that down for sure. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

At least Luke also brought pup home a Kong toy, which we put a treat in … she went to town, and it was super cute.

Well that’s all I have … this post really sucks, I realize. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Oh well. Here’s to a better day tomorrow …

~ Mandy

 

I’m a “GOTG”

Howdy guys! What’s going on today? I don’t have to work today, so huzzah!

Breakfast this morning was a big one! Three eggs, two pieces of honey wheat toast, a small avocado, and cucumber. I needed a filling breakfast and ate around 8:20 – I worked until 2, and I don’t like fast food at the mall, so I definitely needed a large breakfast!

At work today, one thing *really* stood out to me – I was learning about the different jackets and layering pieces we have at Eddie Bauer, and my manager picked out a specific coat and showed me the acronym “GOTG” on the label – it stands for Girl on the Go! I love that! ๐Ÿ™‚

Upon returning home around 2:30, I was pleasantly surprised that my hubby had made me a steak salad and a much-needed coffee!

Lunch was SO yummy … I’m lucky to have a hubby who thinks of me! ๐Ÿ™‚

Dinner was a throw-together meal on my part – 2 eggs topped with salsa, spinach, cucumber, and carrot topped with ranch, and a piece of toast with butter.

That’s all I got for today!

~ Mandy

This ‘N That

Howdy guys! How are you?

I’m doing pretty well … I’m *about* to admit that posting my eats on a daily basis does wonders for my ED … therefore, I do believe I’ll give it a go.

Breakfast was delicious and very fillingย  – two fried eggs with salsa and a piece of toast topped with avocado and cucumber.

Lunch was equally delicious – I cooked 3 pieces of bacon and roasted some carrot, broccoli, cauliflower (my fav), and bell pepper. Then I put it all on a bed of spinach with half a slice of pepper jack cheese (the other half went to Serina, ha!). Toppings were ranch dressing and some black bean and corn salsa.

After lunch, Miss Serina was getting restless, so I took her on a 45 minute walk around the complex. My outfit for the day was fun – it was an Anthropologie dress with black tights. ๐Ÿ˜›My snack today was leftover veggies from lunch and salsa.

About an hour later, I needed more sustenance and had a few more veggies with deer sausage and ranch.Dinner was simple – I had about 1 C of Greek yogurt with a banana and PB.

Serina and I took a selfie!

More veggies and dressing as part of dinner … I had a Sweet Tart candy cane for dessert – talk about yummy and low calorie, you guys. Candy canes are a perfectly festive treat!

Luke and I enjoyed a nightcap of bourbon before going to bed!

Sooo … I *may* be working for Express AND Eddie Bauer this holiday season. Nothing is set in stone yet, and I plan on asking my manager at Eddie Bauer how many hours he can schedule me for at the maximum … but Express sent me an email saying I could interview with them on Friday, and I’d like to see what they say!

Til Tomorrow,

~ Mandy

Eating for Gains + That New Puppy Smell

It’s been quite the past two days with our new baby Serina – she’s slowly getting the idea to go potty on walks and is walking on the leash as well as aย  7 week old puppy can!

And how are the cats reacting, you might ask? They’re *tolerating* the puppy but they’re not thrilled. I apologize for the blurry photos, these were taken at night.

We’re trying to give tons of kitty cuddles out as much as we can!

Unfortunately, I woke up with a head cold/sore throat, and I honestly wasn’t feeling my best today – see my bun look below (the bun doughnut is a last resort for me usually).

I also realized while looking in the full body mirror at Eddie Bauer that I’m “skinny fat.” That means I’m skinny but I have no muscle. My goal is to change that by modifying my diet (eating 3-4 times a day) and hitting the weights at the gym with Luke once I’m feeling better – watch this spot!

For today though, I simply changed my diet a bit.

Breakfast was 1/2 C of oatmeal with pumpkin, banana, and PB. YUM! I ate around 9 a.m.. and wasn’t hungry again until lunch.

Now, we were out of food for lunch and dinner, so I had Luke pick me up a Boar’s Head salad at Pak A Sak when he drove over to see his friend Marc, and we made plans to go grocery shopping. This salad had cheese, ham, bacon, an egg, cucumber, tomatoes, and ranch dressing. This happy little salad was consumed around 2 p.m. and kept me very full. ๐Ÿ™‚

After I ate lunch, I took Serina over to my mom’s house to play! Mom and my twin sis Jenny were there and helped me wear her out!

The pupper frolicked and played and rolled in the grass and of course received extra loving from my mom and Jenny!

After Serina’s hour long play at Mom’s, we put her in her crate to sleep (and sleep she did!), and Luke and I ran to Sam’s Club for some bulk food. We’re lucky to live close to United, Sam’s Club, and Walmart, so food is always very accessible.

My snack eaten around 5:20 ish – it was an un-pictured glass of grapefruit juice, a large organic carrot, and some baby tomatoes tossed with S+P and red pepper hummus on the side.

After Luke headed to work at 6, I began my copious tea-lemon-honey drinking. I used Earl Gray, and it soothed my darn throat while my sweet little charge slept and slept! Serina and I tried to keep our attitudes positive with all this sickness – Luke had it first, and now it’s my turn.

(Yes, she ended up sleeping on my shoulder!)I ate dinner around 7:40 – I had a Brussels sprout and kale bagged salad with chicken on top and some black bean salsa (my fav).

Serina and I watched TV (well, mainly me – she was asleep most of the time) with the sleepy kitties and waited impatiently for Luke to come home (midnight) with some NyQuil.

Eventually he came home to much fanfare from pup …

… and kitty alike!

Alrighty, I’m off to nurse this cold!

TTYS!

~ Mandy ๐Ÿ™‚

Meet Serina! + Tuesday Eats + I Have a New Job

Meet our new baby Serina, y’all!

She’s a mantle Great Dane – almost 7 weeks old – and she’s coming home with us tomorrow! I’m one elated mama right now. ๐Ÿ™‚

Are you saying “awwww” yet?

Tuesday Eats

Breakfast was pumpkin banana oatmeal with PB – I ate about 3/4 before feeling full. Coffee to drink on the side.

For lunch, I sauteed some Brussels sprouts, venison sausage, bleu cheese, and placed it on spinach with a few cherry tomatoes – I used a drizzle of honey as my dressing, and it was *sooo* good!

My snack was a spinach salad with a sweetie apple and some bleu cheese vinaigrette, S+P. Apples and cheese are one of my favorite combos, and this dressing doesn’t have too many calories, so I’m in LOVE.

Around 5, I needed a pick me up, so I had some broccoli and jalapeno bacon ranch.And around 6, I made spaghetti and ate my portion out of a cat mug. ๐Ÿ™‚ Hot tea to follow!

On Working Again

I applied for a job at our local Eddie Bauer, and by really awesome chance, my good friend Daniel who I worked at Hidden Falls Ranch with about 15 years ago is the MANAGER. He called, said he’d love to have me, and I see him tomorrow at 1:30 to go over things. I’m SUPER stoked to be working again, it’s ABOUT TIME!

Things I Found on the Internet that Made Me Laugh

 

I’ll do an update when we have Serina home …

TTYS!

~ Mandy

A Few Thoughts on Friday

Howdy there my friends! How are you doing today?

The SCOOP right now ~

The Daily Catitude: Calliope passed out on the Xbox looking completely lifeless.

What I’m Currently Saving For: Old Friends Midi Dress from Free People

Anthropologie has just gotten too pricey and too boring for me in general, so I’m slowly making the switch to FP.

I’m also eyeballing this Urban Outfitters Anna Sui top … it would look so cute with my Realisation Par Wild Things skirt.

I am, however, trying to purchase the majority of my clothing at Target and TJ Maxx to save on shipping and to try on the clothes before buying – no expensive returns! These are just a few “fun” items that have caught my eye on the Internet.

What I Last Purchased: Free People Silent D Laguna Mules

Let me start off by saying that I ADORE Silent D shoes – I own two pairs, and they’re the only heels I’ve ever been able to wear comfortably, plus they’re super cute.

These mules are currently ON SALE (and I got them an extra 30% off sale price), on trend, and I look forward to their arrival.

I have a good feeling about those shoes, as I ordered the Anthropologie High Heeled version – the Silent D Noveltee Heels – earlier in the summer, but I had to return them because the heel was about an inch too high for me. They were comfortable but simply not practical for my lifestyle.

What I’m Currently Selling: Check out my auctions on eBay here – they’re all Anthropologie and Free People!

What I’m Eating Today:

A red plum with 2/3 C Greek yogurt and a squirt of honey.

My mug speaks for itself. ๐Ÿ™‚

Coffee in my Anthropologie mug from Seattle.

When I was hungry again, I was craving veggies, so I sauteed up a big ol’ handful of kale, some carrots, a big piece of broccoli, about 6 Brussels sprouts, and a small piece of butternut squash, and added a bit of Sesame dressing and minced garlic.

Mmm-uhmm! If eating a big pile of veggies is wrong, I don’t want to be right! SO GOOD! Ein Apfel for snack – an envy apple with two teaspoons of PB and cinnamon.

Around 6, I was getting snacky but wasn’t quuuuuite ready for dinner yet, so I made a little tasting plate of deer sausage, carrots, broccoli, cucumber, and about two tablespoons of light ranch dressing.

Aaaand dinner was what I cooked today – spaghetti on a bed of spinach.

What I’m Cooking Today: Spaghetti

Ingredients

  • 1.5 lb ground chuck
  • Parsley, basil, garlic, and oregano to season the meat
  • 2 24 oz. cans of spaghetti sauce of your choice (I used Classico)
  • 1 packet of McCormick Zesty Spaghetti seasoning
  • 8 oz. chopped mushrooms
  • 1 lb of Barilla Thick Spaghetti noodles
  • 4 oz Philadelphia low fat cream cheese
  • 1 C ricotta cheese
  • 2 C mozzarella cheese
  • 1/2 C Parmesan cheese

Directions

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Brown the meat in a large skillet and eyeball seasonings – basil, parsley, oregano, and minced garlic. Add the mushrooms while the beef is about halfway done browning and also add the Zesty taco seasoning. After the meat is browned, add 2 cans of spaghetti sauce and let simmer on medium.

While the meat simmers away, it’s time to boil some noodles! Break the dry noodles in half and add them to boiling water with salt … cook, cook, cook until al dente.

Once the noodles are done, drain them and place them at the bottom of a casserole dish (or two … I made two casseroles out of this!).

Plop the ricotta and cream cheese on the top of the spaghetti – it looks like a lot, but it’s not as much as it seems in this picture! Good lord, that looks like a TON!Then add the meat sauce to the top! Top the casserole(s) with 2 C of mozzarella cheese and 1/2 C of Parmesan. Bake at 350 for 30 minutes.

Voila! I made two casseroles, FYI – I’m just showing pictures of one. ๐Ÿ˜€

Alrighty,

Til Soon,

~ Mandy